Selfish in my own way

I had a great day yesterday. After work, I went to see Eclipse and have sushi with my friend Jaimie. She is only in town for the summer and even though we work together, we haven't seen eachother much this summer. It was so nice to go have a girls' night out and catch up. My awesome hubby held things down at home. By the time I got home Ian was fed, bathed, and asleep in bed.


I checked my email, took care of some laundry, and started to wind down for the night. I realized that I hadn't seen Ian much that day. We spend a few hours together every morning before I take him to Beth's, but usually the bulk of our time togethers is in the afternoons during playtime, dinner, bath, quiet time, and then a lullabye for bedtime. I always go in to check on him when I am going to bed, so last night I was selfish....I went in to sing to him. Now, he didn't need that. He was already asleep. In fact, I was risking doing more harm then good. If he had woken up, he would have probably been hard to get back down since he is teething and cranky. Yet it was something that I had missed that day. I love that time when he either sits in my lap in the glider rocker or lays in his crib while I rub his back and sing to him.


It occured to me that many of the things we do for our children are because we enjoy them as much or maybe even more than they do.

I buy Ian toys because I love to watch him figure things out. Sure he loves his toys, but usually he would be just as happy with the box the toy came in.

We dress our kids in super cute (sometimes embarassing) outfits.

We plan big 1st birthday parties to celelbrate the first year of life of these wonderful miracles God gives us.

And in my case, we go through routines to savor every minute we can with them.

Ian got really restless when I went in his room, so I didn't get to sing to him. I just peeked in, told him I loved him, and left the room. Gives me something to look forward to tonight though.

Think I will sing him "Godspeed" by the Dixie Chicks. If you haven't heard it, check it out.

Here are the words:

Dragon tales and the "water is wide"

Pirates sail and lost boys fly

Fish bite moonbeams every night

And I love you

Godspeed, little man

Sweet dreams, little man

Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings

Godspeed

Sweet dreams

The rocket racer's all tuckered out

Superman's in pajamas on the couch

Goodnight moon, we'll find the mouse

And I love you

God bless mommy and match box cars

God bless dad and thanks for the stars

God hears "amen" wherever we are

And I love you

Godspeed, little man

Sweet dreams, little man

Oh my love will fly to you each night on angels wings

Godspeed

Godspeed

Godspeed

Sweet dreams

My Little Man